“Through the blur, I wondered if I was alone or if other parents felt the same way I did – that everything involving our children was painful in some way. The emotions, whether they were joy, sorrow, love or pride, were so deep and sharp that in the end they left you raw, exposed and yes, in pain. The human heart was not designed to beat outside the human body and yet, each child represented just that – a parent’s heart bared, beating forever outside its chest.”
― Debra Ginsberg
And like me, my children’s emotions are so deep and sharp they leave them raw and exposed and in pain. Their heart beats on the outside. Something little to someone else is at the time, the worse thing that ever happened to them. Something happy is at the time the happiest moment and a memory is like reliving a moment. My husband and I didn’t plan for this piece to our puzzle. At times we welcome it, at times we don’t understand it and at times we absolutely despise it and the challenges our children face. The challenges some people may never understand and some people don’t want to understand. But we know it’s brought us the most amazing, funny, smart interesting, loving children we could ask for. On a daily basis our life is a roller coaster they show us more laughter, love, craziness, sorrow, pain and confusion then we could experience in a lifetime. But through it all we are smiling through the chaos, this chaos called Autism.